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Warrior Wednesday - Fighting for Freedom

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It's really hard to feel free when you're in the position I am right now. I suppose I have some options, but many of them have things to weigh carefully. Financially, I need to make a serious change if I don't get a regular job soon. I'm at risk of losing my home.

It's not that I don't have desirable skills. There is one particular skill that is making it difficult for me. Which one? I don't speak enough French. I'm learning it, but I mostly know basic etiquette and swears. One of those is helpful for work.

I'm waiting to hear on the results of a job interview.

Options if I don't get the job:

  1. Drive Uber: I'm already delivering food through them, but delivering people makes more money. There are drawbacks. One being that I don't love driving enough to make it my main career. The increase in car maintenance costs needs to be considered. If something happens to my car, I'm back to having trouble paying my mortgage. But the schedule is flexible, which is great for writing. The varied clientele could be inspiring for a story. I could end up working less to pay my expenses. Note: I also recently applied to another type of delivery service that pays more.

  2. Relocate: I could apply to jobs in another part of the country. Peterborough would be my first choice because it's closer to my family, closer to Toronto (a major film hub in Canada), and there may be more English speakers and less of a need to be bilingual. Also, I really like the dojo there. I could even get back into karate as they do that too. But moving means selling my condo. It needs a bit of work before I can really do that. It also means not seeing my movie club friends much, missing my little buddy, and his sister. I'd miss my dojo too, but I know I'll see them eventually at a seminar at least. But I could go through all the work of moving again to end up in the same position. It feels like regardless this French issue will continue to pop up in my life. Selling includes extra costs like legal fees that would eat into any equity I've accumulated. Moving to Peterborough would put me closer to my family. My parents are in their mid-seventies, so it could become important to be closer to them.


I feel like if my car was paid off, everything would be easier. I'm feeling pulled in a couple of directions and I don't know what the answer is for me. On the one hand, one of the options has a lot of potential, but on the other, am I done with Ottawa? The only thing I know is that I can't stay in this limbo state forever. What about the other things I'm already working on here? I think some could be done from anywhere. I'm less worried about the cost of moving than I am about the possibility that no one will buy my condo. That could put me in a worse position.

I think if I don't hear anything by the end of this week, I'm going to try option 1. Or maybe I should just set that in motion now via email...

The idea of getting back to karate is tantalizing. My life is rather busy for it right now though.

I've hardly been able to write lately :(

I really don't know what the right decision is on this. I think I can try option 1 for a bit, see if I can make enough doing that to support myself, and if not, go for option 2. I may try both and see what happens.

R~

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