Skip to main content

Warrior Wednesday - Fighting for Freedom

[caption id="attachment_11040" align="alignright" width="300"]sword Image created using Bitmoji[/caption]

It's really hard to feel free when you're in the position I am right now. I suppose I have some options, but many of them have things to weigh carefully. Financially, I need to make a serious change if I don't get a regular job soon. I'm at risk of losing my home.

It's not that I don't have desirable skills. There is one particular skill that is making it difficult for me. Which one? I don't speak enough French. I'm learning it, but I mostly know basic etiquette and swears. One of those is helpful for work.

I'm waiting to hear on the results of a job interview.

Options if I don't get the job:

  1. Drive Uber: I'm already delivering food through them, but delivering people makes more money. There are drawbacks. One being that I don't love driving enough to make it my main career. The increase in car maintenance costs needs to be considered. If something happens to my car, I'm back to having trouble paying my mortgage. But the schedule is flexible, which is great for writing. The varied clientele could be inspiring for a story. I could end up working less to pay my expenses. Note: I also recently applied to another type of delivery service that pays more.

  2. Relocate: I could apply to jobs in another part of the country. Peterborough would be my first choice because it's closer to my family, closer to Toronto (a major film hub in Canada), and there may be more English speakers and less of a need to be bilingual. Also, I really like the dojo there. I could even get back into karate as they do that too. But moving means selling my condo. It needs a bit of work before I can really do that. It also means not seeing my movie club friends much, missing my little buddy, and his sister. I'd miss my dojo too, but I know I'll see them eventually at a seminar at least. But I could go through all the work of moving again to end up in the same position. It feels like regardless this French issue will continue to pop up in my life. Selling includes extra costs like legal fees that would eat into any equity I've accumulated. Moving to Peterborough would put me closer to my family. My parents are in their mid-seventies, so it could become important to be closer to them.


I feel like if my car was paid off, everything would be easier. I'm feeling pulled in a couple of directions and I don't know what the answer is for me. On the one hand, one of the options has a lot of potential, but on the other, am I done with Ottawa? The only thing I know is that I can't stay in this limbo state forever. What about the other things I'm already working on here? I think some could be done from anywhere. I'm less worried about the cost of moving than I am about the possibility that no one will buy my condo. That could put me in a worse position.

I think if I don't hear anything by the end of this week, I'm going to try option 1. Or maybe I should just set that in motion now via email...

The idea of getting back to karate is tantalizing. My life is rather busy for it right now though.

I've hardly been able to write lately :(

I really don't know what the right decision is on this. I think I can try option 1 for a bit, see if I can make enough doing that to support myself, and if not, go for option 2. I may try both and see what happens.

R~

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Hanna "Semi Precious" Murphy

A legend in the roller derby community is gone. How and why, I do not know. What I do know is that many are reeling from the news, myself included. 
Hanna was known for big hits and a brilliant personality. I experienced her hits first hand as she sent me flying a number of times. Then she'd smile and make sure I wasn't hurt. 
I stumbled onto this clip on Youtube from 2012 and I think it shows Hanna as many knew her.
She was a force off the track too.
As a cofounder of the award-winning Top Shelf Distillers, she gave much to the surrounding Ottawa Valley community.  
Hanna was a relatively petite woman and it was she who taught me that I could be mighty despite my size. I wouldn't be the woman I am today if I hadn't had the pleasure and the privilege of sharing the track with her. 
I'm shocked. I'm sad. I'm upset I'll never see her or speak to her again. 
R.I.P. #10.

Rae-Rae

Change is in the Air

I've been making a lot of changes lately around my home and some of them might seem a little odd, but they're making me happy. One thing I've done is taken apart my dining table. I never eat in there or have people over to eat. It was just another horizontal surface that would collect things like receipts, odd screws from various projects, and countless piles of paper. I had been frustrated because of the clutter it encouraged, but also because I didn't have a space for my Yamaha keyboard. I had been trying to use my keyboard in the living room, but it felt too cluttered and it wasn't sitting at the right height. With it now in my dining room, I was able to relocate my storage bench, which happens to be the perfect height to sit at while playing my keyboard. I now have much more breathing room. There is still a lot of mess to handle here yet, but I'm making solid progress. A lot of people suggest the bedroom is the place to start when decluttering, but I haven&…

Feeling My Age - ROW80 2020 R1-4

I've reached the age where my body has decided to have issues. Not constantly, but frequently. Sprinting for a bus can leave me with an injured ankle simply from using it, not from actually twisting it in ways it shouldn't move, just a fairly normal activity. I guess I need to warmup and stretch before walking to the bus now. About a decade ago, I was given a guard for my teeth due to grinding. And for the next month, I need to sleep with wrist braces because my doctor thinks I'm developing carpal tunnel. Really, I'm surprised it hasn't happened before now given my level of computer use. My mom had it years ago and had to have surgery. From reading books of all things. Anyway, he thinks if I sleep with braces on that it may be enough to keep it at bay because the nerves will get 7-8 hours of rest. After 4 days and nights, the tingling has been reducing, so I'm hopeful.
"Your body is like an elastic." -Georges St. Pierre I recently stocked up on health…