Rae Roy

So last week I had one of those big birthdays where one starts a new decade. I spent the tail end of the previous one figuring out many things about myself and my needs. This included my spirituality, my politics, and my sexual orientation. Because I had time to think about things in a lot of depth, I think the next decade will be good for me or at least better than the previous ones have been.      I also anticipate my 40s to be better because I care less about many things that I should've stopped caring about long ago. A more solid view of what is actually important has replaced those old cares. But some days, I have no idea if anything will improve.  On fitness , I got out for an hour long walk on Friday after work. I was hungry, tired, sweaty, and a little mosquito bitten after, but I felt great. This is something I clearly need to do more often. I had felt like skating would be too much of a mountain to climb that day and it was fairly warm, so the walk was what I opted for in

Three months worth of goals are below. Bathroom (1-5 in early July) Yes, the bathroom will still be a thing in my life for awhile longer, but I'm close to finishing the bulk of it. Those items that are making the rest of my home a mess. Well, not all of them. The tub surround for Phase two is hanging out in my living room behind my couch and it's quite an annoying thing to have this large cardboard box there, but it is less in the way than it was in my entrance way, so I'm calling it a temporary win and maybe I'll cover it with a blanket to pretend it's not a giant box behind my couch. 1. Finish plank wall 2. Install trim 3. Get and install corner shelves 4. Move furniture in 5. Celebrate the completion of Phase 1 6. Phase 2? (Depends on plumber) Education I'm currently enrolled in a course to help improve my ability to research as an author as I feel like this is one of my weaker skills at this moment in my writing career. I want to learn the methods that help

No in French is non and it got me wondering about the word nonsense for a moment, but not enough to deep dive on it. It's probably because Latin anyway. Have you ever had one of those days where you want to say everything and you also want to say nothing? Maybe you have a secret. It could be about something private, or a deal that isn't solidified, or it could even be that saying it out loud might make you look disturbed or like an asshole. I have days like this and I think some of it is the imposter syndrome monster nagging me because not having published any of my novels yet makes me feel like I'm not a real writer. By the time I publish Sparks, I wonder if anyone will even want to read it.  It has been through a lot over the years. Point of view changes, setting changes, time changes, and sensitivity changes are among those.  Because I aim to eventually have ties to my other novels, I've had a lot of thinking to do that I didn't initially plan to have to do. Writ

Strange Dreams I had several nights a couple weeks back where I flowed in and out of dream sequences. Dream 1 I was fighting with my mother about whether or not we should try and protect the dog from mosquitos. I kept arguing they can get infections that disfigure them and she kept arguing that it was just a dog. The dog wasn't their dog. It was a friend's dog, Snowy. Dream 2 I was moving into a shared house with friends and one was being really jerky about what I was allowed to bring and not. Someone brought some of my things for me and they included garbage like old pizza boxes. I was adamant that my books were coming. My friend brought all kinds of stuffed animals that weren't mine like Pikachu and was taking up space in my room with them. Dream 3 I was at the store with friends and we came upon a box of fabric softener sheets that had my name on them. It had to do with a return from Amazon that somehow ended up at the grocery store. I hatched a plan to get them for free

So, I had my first stream tonight. It was plagued with technical issues, but I kept going. I figured out some things like how to put my game on the screen thanks to a pointer from my friend, DJLittleFever. That also let me put my face on the screen.  The audio issues remain. I had a issue where the sound would endlessly loop if I tried to add in-game sound, so I need to work on that. But I did it! It's a bit weird talking to myself, but I'm sure I'll get used to it. I played Minecraft and mostly toured my various builds. I'll have to plan something more time consuming in the future. I have ideas for that, I just need to figure out where to do them. Check out my progress here:  https://trello.com/b/RM8yD3eq/rae-roy-general

As we approached the weekend, I was feeling a bit glum. The heat had me wanting to do nothing but sleep. Our humidity levels had it up passed 30 degrees Celsius (90 degrees Fahrenheit) and I was sure I wouldn't be able to achieve any of my goals for this long weekend. Specifically finishing the painting in my bathroom and getting the sink in place. This weekend is also the traditional annual May Seminar for my martial art and there was no way I'd be able to participate with the heat. I was also wanting to catch up on my dishes, but who wants to run a dishwasher in the heat? So I decided to take a brief detour and install my air conditioner. That took some time and energy, which was a delay, but a worthwhile one because I no longer felt wiped out by the heat. I also had a tub surround to pick up, but it would be hard to find a place to put it without getting my sink in place. I made it. Mostly. The painting is done (4 coats later - lime green is awful to cover) and the sink is i