I'm feeling less anxious than I have in a long time. I've met my softball team and they're really welcoming. The Hayley Kiyoko concert had me in a room full of kindred spirits, which has made me feel less alone in the world. I even ran into a colleague there, though we got separated, so we caught up at work instead. We're on the pride committee together. She plays roller derby in the league I was part of. Well, since the two leagues amalgamated, it's technically a new league entirely.
Roller derby is another thing I did that should've been a clue that I was gay. I kept finding myself in queer spaces like that and didn't know why. Not that everyone in derby is part of the rainbow community, but a high percentage are. Seeing a woman comfort her girlfriend stuck in my mind for many years. Love is love.
On Monday, I visited Montreal's Botanical Gardens before heading back to Ottawa. It was so beautiful and restorative for me. I truly need to get out into nature more than I have been because it always brings me inner peace. I've been on edge for too long.
Tuesday was an in-office day, but I awoke with ideas for book two. No, I'm not finished editing book one, but I needed to write down the thoughts as they flowed. Surprisingly, I was not late for work. My clothing order was awaiting me at home and soon after, my copy of Girls Like Girls by Hayley Kiyoko arrived. I hadn't expected it to come on release day! I'm still reading Helen of Troy, but perhaps Hayley's book will be the next one I read.
Beyond work, I didn't know what Wednesday was going to be about though I thought some groceries and such might be a good idea. I never ended up going out for any. Instead, I finally got around to removing the large carpet from my office. It only fit if my desk was on top of it and having my desk on top of it had the carpet bunching up from moving my chair. This was trapping crumbs and attracting bugs, which I'm not a fan of! I wanted to fix it sooner, but I just couldn't.
I expected to be broken on Thursday after my learning assessment given how the ADHD assessment had affected me. I cancelled Twitch streaming this week just to let myself be however I was going to be after it. I wasn't broken, but I was tired, so I watched movies and cross-stitched. Which movies? Well, I finished Rock of Ages, then I watched Crimson Peak, and I capped off the evening with I Wanna Dance with Somebody. The last one seemed a fitting start to Pride Month.
Friday was a productive day at work though I felt a bit slammed from being off for two days. Softball was fun and I feel like I did a bit better than last week. I can't use the proper socks as they are too big for my feet, which had me sliding around in my cleats. That wasn't effective for running well. I'm using socks from roller derby instead.
I'm really glad I decided to join the league. It gives me something to look forward to every week. It's a queer league too, so I'm broadening my queer friend base. I caught up with a lot of the people from curling there, which was excellent.
I looked forward to Saturday's kung fu session despite still being trash at many of the animal walks because I see slight progress after each time I've been. Last week, not only was I a bit less bad at Crocodile Walk, but I noticed I am slightly more flexible. I used to be able to raise my feet up to my face level. I'm not there yet, but I'm well on the way and my hip flexor muscles are feeling better.
But I didn't make it. I have a pain in my left side and I can't figure out what it is. I've had it since Thursday. Stretching hurts. I'm hoping it's just a pulled muscle that will be better in a couple of days. I noticed heat is helpful. It seems like it might be an oblique. It must have happened when I fixed my desk carpet situation.
Sunday was Lez Go bingo and brunch. Lez Go is a lesbian event company in Ottawa. Since lesbians typically nest and don't frequent bars in the same way that gay men tend to, pop-up events work well. They do a variety of events. I've been to pool, bowling, and dances. I think they may also have had a picnic, though I'm not sure on that.
Other than that, I did parts of a lot of things throughout Sunday and never finished anything. I'm trying to figure out if that means it was productive or not. Does productivity assume completion?
After doing work on my calendars, I have set up a Google calendar for writing related things and my Twitch streaming. It will be the calendar to follow for news on where I can be found in the world. It doesn't replace my private calendar, but I think it could be a good thing. I'll share it someday soon. It came about while I was trying to rid myself of an import mistake. I accidentally imported a .ics file to my main calendar and had to fix that. So I also fixed some birthday entries and moved one friend group into their own calendar.
I finished Sunday with Empire Records. And Minecraft.