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Thoughtful Thursday - Past Ghosts



My life is so wonderful that not even the discovery over Christmas that my ex remarried can dampen my spirits. That part of my life is so far behind me it seems alien. I know people are usually upset about these things, but I've done and learned so much in the last five years that it doesn't bother me. I wish them all the best for the future. 
Speaking of the future, mine is full of uncertainty, but I've never felt more alive. Sure, having someone to share it with would be awesome, but I don't need a partner to feel complete. I know I'll meet 'the one' eventually. Until then, my loves are writing, music, and martial arts. 

I have so many writing projects going on and I feel like I'm finally almost living the life I've dreamed about. I have some of the most fantastic people in my life and I'm following my dreams. My heart is so full of love and happiness. 

That doesn't mean everything is perfect. The bus is a pain in the butt and I want my home to be cleaner. I also can't play guitar as well as I want to. After conquering car troubles and figuring out my food issues, I don't have a lot of heavy problems now. I pretty much just have to keep working hard on my craft and practice some self care. 

I'm not the resolution type. I just make goals and accomplish them. Then I make new goals. Currently, what's important to me is doing well in school, reducing my unnecessary material possessions, and living life as fully as possible. I'm working on all of these things and getting happier by the day.

One of my goals is to be in a position where I can move more easily than the other times I've moved. I know it's likely I'll have to move to the Toronto area, Vancouver, or possibly even California someday for my career. It's also possible I'll just travel a lot. At any rate, I want to be ready for whatever life brings me next. 

That said, right now I'm only interested in long term dating if the right person comes along. He won't feel threatened by my success, put me down, or be inflexible about my career and interests. More on dating tomorrow. 

The last five years have been a journey of personal growth for me. Yeah, it's been really challenging at times, but I know who I am and what I want. I'm pretty happy and I think you need to be happy before you can bring someone else into your life. I've been spending a lot of time lately letting the past go because it's not where I am now or where I aim to be in the future.

What are you holding onto that is holding you back from the life you want?

Guid cheerio the nou,

R~ 

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