This week was been stressful, but I managed to get some things off of my to-do list. It was also the official start of holiday event season for me. My first event was a paint nite with friends. We gifted each other a painting. Below is the one I painted. It was gifted to my friend Cat. Yes, the bunnies are shaped like snowmen. They're aliens pretending to fit in on Earth during the holiday season, but don't quite have things right. The red balls were added after this.
The one I took home was painted by my friend Jennifer and it's metal AF.
Truthfully, I'm not much for the holiday season at all. If it were up to me, I would've stopped the whole gift thing many years ago. My brothers and I are all adults. I'm the youngest. None of us have children currently. Neither brother plans to. With the right person, I'm open to it.
I care more about spending quality time together and having tasty food than I do about getting gifts. I wish we could all just buy ourselves something(s) and skip the added stress at an already stressful time of year. Or perhaps just one gift each like in a Secret Santa would be a good middle ground.
This paint nite exchange was a wonderful idea and I think it was my friend Erika who mentioned it. She often has great ideas. Another one of hers was the recent spooky trip to Kingston.
The next evening was my work holiday party and I and some friends left by 10:00 PM. The music wasn't my kind of music and it was so loud that my throat was getting sore from trying to have conversations. It was even like that during dinner. But it was nice to chat with some colleagues anyway and get to know them a little better. One asked me a writerly question I'll make a separate post about soon. Perhaps I'll even try to get it placed somewhere.
I definitely think we're on the right track with my current med, but I am getting the, "crash," as it reduces, which feels a bit stressful. It could be that I need a lighter pill later on in the day, but I'm trying meditation, exercise, and CBD for it. I generally feel like I need a break from things and people while it's happening to recalibrate myself. Oh, and I'm quite thirsty while playing sports, but I have a small camelback I may start wearing to handle that. I suspected this would happen given that I have Sjogren's plus the medication that is dehydrating.
Otherwise, I've been able to do a lot of normally very hard-for-me tasks this week. More on that in the new monthly goals section.
I feel like I'm almost used to my med. A friend takes a day or two off on the weekend with hers, but Concerta doesn't stay in my system in the way that hers does, so it doesn't work for me to do that.
Stress certainly makes me feel extra awful with it. Before, I could let a lot of things not get to me. Some things always did, but for others it was as if I walked about in an apathetic fog. I think I understand others a bit more because of this.